going blind

17th August, Wednesday
i'm going blind leh i think. i've had perfect eyesight all my life, i mean almost perfect, cos left eye 6/6 then right eye 24/6. something like that. but i can always see things perfectly cos i use the 6/6 eye. dunno which uncle say its cos i look at girl only use right eye thats y the degree so high. lol. like so -_-". anyway, recently i look at words from a distance then cannot see clearly. the worse part was when i went with kai, den and his gf to great world city to watch C&TCF. after the movie we went downstairs and i was looking for the signboard that says where to take the shuttle bus to orchard. i saw a cluster of signs a short distance away then i squint my eyes like mad cannot read the words! arggh. i ask kai help me see and he immediately was able to read the words out. =( my poor eyes.

so i went to make a pair of specs. y not contacts? cos its weird to have only on 1 eye and its weird to stick your finger in your eye twice a day, esp in the morning when yur sleepy. accidents can happen. so specs still better IMHO. haha. collected the specs just today, wearing them now. feels wierd. lol.

so that my entry doesn't come across as being overly superficial here's a dose of cheemness. haha. ;)

does god exist?

tada! pls post replies under "comments". if u think yes. why. or no. then why not.

thank youss

5th August, Friday
before i start just wanna remind you that if you scroll down there's a wee little test that you can take, just for fun. =)

sometimes you don't know something to be close to your heart until its gone. well, i guess this to be true. was just thinking about the coming school year ahead and couldn't help but think back of all the friends i've made in school throughout the first year. coming to a foreign place not knowing ANYONE to start with, i was worried i couldn't fit in. i even imagined myself talking to the trees in SMU cos dunno anyone there mah. haha, a bit kua zhang right? it turns out that i've made many good friends in my time here so far, first it was my OG mates, then my lovely LTB mates, my financial accounting group mates and a couple of others i've got to know along the way. i am truly thankful. anyway, i've never said this before but you guys have been great, esp to my LTB friends, you've brightened up my uni life a great deal, all the project meetings, deadlines, outings and birthday celebrations have made the whole SMU ordeal a more bearable one. yup, gonna miss you guys when term starts. will try to meet up when theres a chance. haha. and elaine, i don't always pung seh okay...not always maybe only sometimes. haha. keep in touch peeps, stay cool, study hard. till we meet again. adios.

i wanna be

4th August, Thursday
i admire people who are driven, passionate, perfectionist, hardworking, disciplined. honestly i don't think that talent makes a person successful, in fact in most cases a talented person easily becomes complacent. he may start off in life really well but it doesn't guarantee he'll finish up a roaring success. on the other hand if a person with average talent but is always seeking to improve, has the drive, the passion to do his best he has a very high chance of coming up on top at the end of the day. sometimes i reflect on my own life and i realise that when i'm left to my own i almost always end up churning up something mediocre, and i hate it. i think i've always had this mentality "do the least amount of work to achieve the satisfactory result". if you look at it positively then its called being efficient, but it looks more to me like lazyness, not achieving the best result possible. i read somewhere that there's 2 kinds of people, the first are extrinsically motivated. e.g. monetary reward, punishment, people's opinions. the second group of people are intrinsically motivated. e.g. personal satisfaction, sense of accomplishment. einstein, beethovan, leonardo da vinci, all these great people who were among the best in their field, which group do you think they belonged to? they belonged to the second group. i mean, did any of them end up with big bucks and fame and glory? no doubt they were recognised for their efforts and we remember them till now but were they big superstars in their days? i don't think so. they did the best they knew how, not for monetary reward nor for fame and glory but rather to be the best that they could be, do the most that they could, while they could.

i can say for sure i'm more inclined to being extrisically motivated, though i wish i was the other. sometimes i project myself forward 30 years and wonder what it'd be like. you know what? i'm afraid. afraid that i'd look back with regret that for the years that past, i was content with average, ordinary, mediocre. afraid that i'd regret not studying harder, being more disciplined, taking more initiative, going the extra mile, speaking up more, thinking of other people more....the list goes on. truth is i'm not much satisfied with where i am right now as a person. so much more to learn, so much more to achieve, so much more to strive for. god help me...

try this if you've got 5 mins to spare

3rd August, Wednesday
a fun quiz i got from grace's blog. give it a try people. =)

take the test!
http://www.quizyourfriends.com/yourquiz_IM.php?quizname=050803114219-391019

see how you fared against the rest?
http://www.quizyourfriends.com/scoreboard.php?quizname=050803114219-391019