amateur poet

February 24th, Thursday
currently feeling ^_^

proud. proud of my poem.

i've been attending poetry class for the last 8 weeks. before you think that i'm losing my mind i must say that i attend because it's part of my study requirements in smu, i haven't gone crazy. haha. i did find the first lesson interesting though, thats why din wanna drop the course. interesting because i'm trying my hand at something i wouldn't normally touch with a 10 foot pole. haha. wrote a few crappy poems but here's one that i actually got to ryhme. its very funny how i came up with inspiration for this poem cos i actually started off wanting to write about that old lady on the mrt that i gave my seat up to (a few posts ago). so i started off trying to describe my reluctance to get out of bed, to show that reader that i was really tired and sort of explain why i din let go of my seat the first time. then it somehow evolved into something else. here goes...

brand new day

the gentle rays had come to prey
each time they neared, i edged away
my eyes wore heavy, refusing to budge
but i had no choice, i knew as much
so i moved my hand and raised a knee
and from this slumber, i did break free

now upright, i took a long deep breath
the smell of air like a sweet caress
twas at this moment! it dawned on me...
the source of this new day. was Thee
and so a smile lit up my face
i said, "thank you God, for Your deep grace"

but i don't think my prof will like it. he prefer's deep, dark, multi-layered poems. not the kind of nice happy ending kind of poem. oh well, one man's meat is another man's poison. i'm not too bothered, i'll get around to writing a deep poem soon enough. dun have a choice, my grades depend on it. i ain't gonna write a love poem either, cos i've seen love poems aplenty on blogs and also the valentine's day edition of today and they either make my hair stand or they make my intestines churn affecting my stomach causing restlessness of the contents inside possibly resulting in an eruption of food ingredients. i.e. to puke. haha. yeah, nice love poems are few and far between so i shan't risk it cos the chances of creating a cheesy poem are way to high. nuh-uh. out of bounds. so anyway poem 2 is on the way, at least 1 line worth of it. no inspiration sia. i may need to take a walk out to some naturey place to soak myself in the surroundings and hopefully get inspired. in the meantime, i'm gonna prepare what to say on sat. phew. tough, i don't wanna say stuff that are so "duh" and yet i'm trying to rack my brains out to bring some freshness to a pretty mundane topic. ahhhh. stress. feel like moses now, telling God i can't speak well leh. how??? but i know the answer already lah so i'm trying to work on it, trusting God that He will use my voice to speak what He wants to say. coincidence? maybe so, my topic is "a new voice".

kay, i never proof read this entry so i hope the thoughts aren't so scattered as to be unintelligible. tired. i'm out.

who do people think you are

February 21st, Tuesday
currently feeling =))

ahhhhh...holiday week. but lotsa stuff to do. project meetings here and there, tuition 3 times this wk, people to call up, speaking this sat, musician on thurs, lifegroup on fri, audit assignment, peoms, journal to update, revision to do, cat proj to think about, christian basic class to prepare....wah.

hey ya'll, help me out by clicking on this link. its a "who do people think you are" kinda thing. be honest when you answer or else wun be accurate. stole the idea from heidi's blog.

http://kevan.org/johari?name=littlegreeenpea

smile =)

February 16th, Thursday
currently feeling -_-" but =)

haha. this currently feeling thing isn't working too well. looks confusing. anw. thurs are official poetry days cos i'm taking a class on creative writing. sounds cool right? but in effect its a poetry class. so the class is at 3:30pm but got project meeting so have to reach school early in the morning at 9am. meeting only for 1 hr nia then from 10am to 3:30pm i stay in school beat mosquito. that explains the -_-".

woke up this morn at 7:15. sleeeepy. i know i'm considered fortunate lah cos schooling people need to wake even earlier so i shan't complain. i zombie-ed towards the gate, down to the bus stop, closed my eyes a while on the bus(although only 3 stops), then cross over to the mrt. so the plan was to leave home earlier then can take mrt to pasir ris and back so got seat mah, or else from tampines confirm stand all the way for 30mins to city hall, which i did. i boarded the mrt to pasir ris still can choose seat, it was that empty. i closed my eyes.....when i opened it was back at tampines again, wah then the best thing happened. you wouldn't believe it. its like undescribable lor....

eh gotta go for lunch. haha. i'll complete this later.

as i was saying. an old lady walked into the cabin and ambled to the precise spot in front of me. i know this sounds evil but at first i pretend to close my eyes. so paikia right? hai, tired leh somemore i purpurly go to pasir ris and back just to get a seat. man. i close my eyes for like 5 secs and a still small voice started tugging at my conscience. i tell you that feeling very strong and it din go away. that 5 secs seemed like eternity, but in the end i gave in lah cos felt very bad for ignoring the old lady. so i did what every kind citizen ought to do and gave up my seat. i stood all the way to city hall feeling tired and sleepy but also feel good lah. if i din stand up i think i deserve to be knocked on the head a million times for being so selfish and act blur. haha. moral of the story? be courteous lah. =)

today.

February 14th, Tuesday
currently feeling >_<-ish

hi friends, a new feature to this blog is the above "currently feeling" description. basically it describes how i am currently feeling. (haha, wad were u expecting??). no legend is provided though, you think geography map ah? everything tell you sui sui. dun hab lah this is blog leh, suppose to be arty, must suggest, paint a picture, throw an image, intrigue the mind, stimulate creativity and be multi layered. haha. my poetry prof say one hor. not happy go find him.

Summary of post - RANT.

haha. unlike the above, this is not an additional feature but will only pop up for this particular entry and this entry alone. its like a warning sign, if yur in a ranty mood then please dun read cos it may aggrevate yur condition thus requiring medical treatment. on the other hand if yur feeling too cruisy and dull-ish you might consider this post a try. here goes...

i mean no offence. really. but i don't get the opposite sex. i really don't. you think i'd be a bit smarter after 25 years on planet earth. you'd think i'd know how they work since i have a mother, a grandmother, 5 aunts on 1 side, 5 on the other, 2 female cousins on 1 side, 5 on the other, 6 LTB girls and many other friends in school. you'd think i know. but you know wad? you never know. i think the way they function is a bit like an 32 bit encryption code which i don't have the key to unlock, the code just scrambles my head. or like the ocean, its vastness and depth uncomprehendable. or like the sky, you think you know how high you are but you really never know. or like a computer that breaks down, you don't know why it goes kapoot...when it goes, it just goes. i don't get it...i really don't. i ain't no mindreader...not a master of body language....can't read your thoughts thru yur eyes...nono. nothing like that. i'm just an ordinary being. i know what you tell me, what you don't i can only guess. hai. that i am not good at.

which brings to mind this incident with the LTB peeps, i think it was vday last year we were celebrating at the kopitiam at old campus. some of you were commenting how you agreed with yur bf's not to spend money on flowers for vday cos its so ex? rem? then ya'll said that actually you really really hope that yur bf will still buy the flowers all the same. lol. see what i mean? nothing is really what it seems, not everything you hear is what it means. hai. come come, somebody please tell me i have misunderstood you all.

again. no offense, i'm just stating the facts. nothing malicious intended. haha. better say properly wait scully some annonymous blogger see liao offended then report to police. wait kenna jail for inciting gender disharmony/riots. lol.

aiyah but in the end i talk so much also like that. i love my mom, my grandmom, aunts and cousins and i appreciate my female friends too. so dispite all my "decoding" problems, these people still form an important part of my life and i wouldn't do without them either. so on this wonderful valentines day, let me wish all of you a happy and fulfilling relationship with your current spouse/spouse to be/gf/gf to be/bf/bf to be and may all yur good beginnings have fantantic endings. God bless! =)

(model blog entry. start low, end high. start by ranting and blabbing, get it all out of your system and then end on a nice note. haha)

Currently feeling (same as above)