what is really important, really

21st January, Saturday
each of us is made unique. we are unique in our physical attributes, like our voices, our finger prints, our intelligence, our looks, our personalities etc. these are pretty obvious, but what came to my mind was how unique we are when it comes to what we think is important to us. when you are a certain age you think that finding the right secondary school is the most important thing, at another age you think that looking fashionably sharp is the most important, at another age you realise that you aren't complete without a significant other so finding one becomes the most important thing, at another age you think back on your life and wonder what significance it has been and you realise that making the remainder of your life count for something is the most important thing, perhaps at another point you also think that your parents have made huge sacrifices to bring you up and so making it up to them and taking care of them is the most important thing to you. indeed each one holds a thing important to them that is different from any other. but i do sometimes wonder where god fits in to the equation.....

i have to admit the things that surround me in this world take my attention easily, simply because they are tangible and they have an "in yur face" kind of attribute about them. if you had a mosquito bite on yur nose, it'd catch yur full attention because the itch is sooo tangible and you just can't get rid of it. which is why i easily get caught up in living my own life, i sometimes forget about god. ouch. i'll be really honest, there was a time not too long ago when i couldn't even find the time to read my bible, say 2 chapters a day. no time no time, busy busy busy these were some of the choice excuses i would feed my brain to stave of the hunger of guilt. and it just went on and on and on before i snapped out of it. i do look back at that time with disgust. if i was honest, i'd say i was busy busy busy, but not too busy to go catch a 2 hour long movie.....no time no time no time, but got soo much time to play dota (an average game is 1.5hrs)....tired tired tired, but sit infront of the tv/computer for hours on end.

if yur wondering why i'm talking bout this is cos i read a passage in matthew that provoked me deeply. matt 13:45-46 "..the kingdom of heaven is like a merchant looking for fine pearls. when he found one of great value, he went away and sold everything he had and bought it". when i read this passage at first i thought this guy is either a crazy nut, or he's not. in which case he must have stumbled upon something, something precious and so important that he was willing to give up everything he had just to pursue that thing. have you found that thing that is so important that it would change your entire life if you had it? if your answer is yes, then you might wanna ask yourself again, is the pearl that you hold really a fine pearl? or just an imitation? or worst, you find one day that you are clutching on to nothing but thin air....what is your fine pearl? are you looking hard for it? it'll change your life.

i don't know about you, but i've found my fine pearl. jesus, saviour, lord, friend. =)